I & me

I was so caught up in who I was supposed to be, that I forgot to be me.
Awake, I saw that I was not me, not the me I was supposed to be.
How do I find me, where would I be if I was me?
Once I saw me, but scared, I ran as far from me, that I could be.
Then, quite accidentally, I helped me, and I just knew I always knew me.

“Denile”, it ain’t just a river in…….

The downside of an unchecked conscious and unconscious constellated psyche: denying the existence of and need for the opposites as a fundamental aspect of sentient life:

Nature attempts to compensate (adapt), for the problems man creates as a result of his unnatural ego fueled ambitions, that he so often unwittingly manifests against her; although nature on its own continues to function just as it always does relative to the ever changing environmental conditions that life finds itself regularly confronting.

With respect to mans psyche, through the expediency of conforming to the values of his crowd, motivated by his collective belief that some future promise of reward will supply him with what he believes he currently lacks, he adopts a disdain for the unknown (that which is unconscious or what he is unaware of), even though the unfolding experiences of the unknown itself is the very instinctual mechanism in which he himself gathers meaning, value and intrinsic motivations.

As a result, the very unknown that man so energeticaly attempts to escape from, and in fact deny the existence of, his unconscious (his unknown), without his own conscious awareness, transforms his focus (attention) onto only recognizing the existence of those phenomena that can be consciously grasped through his senses and subsequently rationalized (explained) through his recent adaptation of reason and the physically based objectively verifiable logic that it requires, so he might effectively communicate his acceptability to others (value), thus denying his own nature and setting it against his own oft consciously professed intentions.

As a result of this transformation, mans unconscious mind, necessarily assumes control of his conscious mind, thereby directing it to now employ artificially contrived techniques in an attempt to fend off any future possibility of his experiencing and feeling discordant emotions that may emerge from any subsequent unfamiliar or unknown experiences.

In this way man binds himself to a superficial, unaware and largely unsatifying existence without knowing he has done so.


My Boy

On May 20th 1998, a soul entered my life that I have been beyond blessed to know, love and care for, my son Luke. From the very beginning I’ve felt an unspoken but palpable connection with Luke that is unlike any other of my relationships. Perhaps this is a natural feeling a father feels for his male progeny, but I think it is something more than that. Like myself, Luke “marches to the beat of his own drummer”, a quality that has always drawn me to and endeared me to my boy. 

Early in his life Luke experienced a noticeable regression in his cognitive development, as we observed in his speech and language. His mother and I, being quite concerned, sought out an endless stream of clinicians and healers who all attempted to put their finger on, and treat, his apparent affliction. In the end, after several years of our attempted interventions, his mother and I were mostly left to sort out for ourselves how to support and guide our boy.

From this experience, I saw very clearly how we as a society, not only seek out answers for the certainty that we believe it will provide us, but we too yearn for and by “hook or crook” find reasons to explain that which we do not understand; even if that which we seek to understand cannot be understood through the conventions of reason and rationality. 

To quell our own fears and our culturally reinforced insecurities, labels, like some delimiting incantation, are assigned to those who we cannot identify with or comprehend. This has always caused considerable pain for me personally, but I cannot imagine what my boy himself has experienced on his personal journey. 

Through subsequent life experiences, Luke has been more fully revealed to me, a brilliant, empathetic, loving and singularly wonderful person. Luke graduates from high school today and I suppose a father could be more proud of his son than I am of Luke, but I could not possibly imagine how that would be possible!

I love you Luke!

Wolfgang Pauli’s Thoughts

At the dawn of religion, all the knowledge of a particular community fitted into a spiritual framework, based largely on religious values and ideas. The spiritual framework itself had to be within the grasp of the simplest member of the community, even if its parables and images conveyed no more than the vaguest hint as to their underlying values and ideas. 

But if he himself is to live by these values, the average man has to be convinced that the spiritual framework embraces the entire wisdom of his society. For “believing” does not to him mean “taking for granted,” but rather “trusting in the guidance” of accepted values. 

That is why society is in such danger whenever fresh knowledge threatens to explode the old spiritual forms. The complete separation of knowledge and faith can at best be an emergency measure, afford some temporary relief. 

In western culture, for instance, we may well reach the point in the not too distant future where the parables and images of the old religions will have lost their persuasive force even for the average person; when that happens, I am afraid that all the old ethics will collapse like a house of cards and that unimaginable horrors will be perpetrated. In brief, I cannot really endorse Planck’s philosophy, even if it is logically valid and even though I respect the human attitudes to which it gives rise.

Einstein’s conception is closer to mine. His God is somehow involved in the immutable laws of nature. Einstein has a feeling for the central order of things. He can detect it in the simplicity of natural laws. We may take it that he felt this simplicity very strongly and directly during his discovery of the theory of relativity. Admittedly, this is a far cry from the contents of religion.

I don’t believe Einstein is tied to any religious tradition, and I rather think the idea of a personal God is entirely foreign to him. But as far as he is concerned there is no split between science and religion: the central order is part of the subjective as well as the objective realm, and this strikes me as being a far better starting point.

-Wolfgang Pauli, Nobel Laureate Physics

Limiting Ideologies

Limiting Ideologies, whose adherents have solidified around a centralized theme, created in order to reinforce the groups mutually beneficial protective status (endowed by a collectively shared belief system, and the resultant governing bylaws and rules that outline the limits of acceptable action of its constituents), cannot effectively; adapt to changing environmental conditions adequately to benefit either the society in which it operates and serves, intrinsically benefit the individual members who constitute the group, or promote the betterment of the collective for who they presumptively function. 

Absent such an assumed ideological arrangement, an indivudal member of such a group must either adopt a new ideology, be forced to create their own, or suffer the requisite existential labor of looking within for an integrated self-affirming motivation (which is highly unlikely, as the real benefit that such groups provide their constituents, is the conditional allotment of external power to its members through the strength of its collective influence, bargaining power and the beneficial workings of its hierarchical structure).


Archetypes exist preconsciously and form the structural dominants of the psyche in general, they are like the invisible presence of the crystal lattice in a saturated solution, providing a construct for matter in a liquid environment.

As “a priori” conditioning factors, archetypes represent a special psychological instance of the biological “pattern of behavior” which gives all living organisms their specific and consequently individually unique properties.

Archetypes did not come into existence as a phenomenon of organic life, but entered into the picture with life itself.

Like the other a priori necessary fundamentals of nature (spacetime, energy, light and sentience), they too are unknowable directly, as they are characteristics that allow for the existence of matter, our universe, nature and life itself.

The archetypes are irrepresentable and cannot be directly known or experienced themselves, but can be felt through their affects and their manifestations in images and symbols. They direct us unconsciously, however, they are like innate sensors that show us what it is we need and are looking for, through cues and our subsequent recognition of images and ideas.

Archetypes are our internal beacons that direct us towards us, towards growth, towards the eternal. They are unconscious elements of the objective collective psyche that, if we attain sufficent levels of awareness through its urging, guide us helically through life.

They are analogous to the infinitely small fundamental particles that make up all matter, but in the living sense of what makes our evolved species human.

An archetype is an universal predisposition to form an image, the spark, the revelation, the emotive urge to conjure an idea of what cannot be seen, but is intimately known all the same.

A paraphrase of Jungs final defintion of archetypes: an innate releasing mechanism of universal emotions that are connected to universal images that occur independent of space and time.

The Greater and The Lesser

Like Goethe’s Faust, Nietzsche’s ideation of Zarathustra is a seminal work in its expression of the archetypal Self (the Greater Personality) in communication and relationship with the relatively frail human Ego (the Lesser Personality). 

It must be understood that the “Ego” is concepted as the center of ones consciousness identity, whereas the more powerful “Self” archetype of eternal Being resides in the recesses of the directly unknowable Objective Unconscious (aka the Collective Unconscious), along with the other evolutionarily selected human instincts and the various volitionally beneficial behavioral images (archetypes)

The Self is as an ocean upon which the Ego finds itself bobbing around, but it can be influenced, and in fact guided by the Self, particularly when the Ego finds itself in circumstances from which it cannot escape and for which tradition offers no salve or balm. 

Either alone, or summoned by the pain and lamentations inflicted upon the Ego by the denied Shadow, the eternal Self, like the Soul guides us for better or worse towards the light or towards the dark of what is and what we ourselves truly are.

Like the “God Image”, that Nietzsche so artfully reveals to us is dead, the strivings of man, in God’s place, inserted his own image (science) in its place, thus inflating and directing the Collective Ego towards the material and the temporal., and away from the transcendent and the eternal. The Image of the Self is our inner link with the divine, the eternal and the unknowable from which we all came and are all a part.

Like heavenly light focused through a tiny opening in the cosmos, our Ego blesses us with the ability to channel an eternal brilliance that our lesser personality could never wield, never contain and never direct.

The Self then is the image, the guide, the channeling point through which the divine intends its inexhaustible energies onto our psyche, onto us. The Self recognizes itself in what the Ego considers both good and evil, as the Ego is very much conditioned and influenced by the world in which it was created and is surrounded by. The Self is not of this age, but it is of this world and of the eternal at the same time. It is the point of ignition for recognizing the paradoxical, the opposite and the dichotomous.